Joy? Really?

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

This is a tough one right now. I mean, deep down, I know it's true. But right now, today, I'm having trouble with it. Oh, I lack wisdom alright. And I ask God for it daily. Sometimes I see those prayers answered. Other days, I don't. And, I don't feel like persevering at the moment. I feel like escaping. But, that never got anyone very far. So, here I sit, sharing my thoughts with the world. Typing them out may just help me convince myself that God really does care about me and want the best for me.

So, what to do? Really. I don't know. Trials are real. Trials are present. Trials are many, at times. And even though I don't feel like persevering, I know that running from it won't help. So, once again, I ask God for wisdom. I never get emails from God. I never get a TM from Him either. Sometimes I think I know what He's saying. Most of the time I don't. But I do trust Him. And I have faith in Him. Even though I face trials.

Thoughts?